fuck.

.. my mum had another dissociative episode today.
she overdosed.
if gary hadn't come home early from college, she might not be here.

i dont know what to do. i know she doesn't want to kill herself, and that it was because of her mental illness that she did it.. she doesn't remember doing it.

it only just sunk in, that if gary hadn't of thought something was wrong and come home early... that she wouldn't be here anymore.

oh god.


and i was becoming happy again.. that's gone straight down the drain now. :'( can't stop crying.